Tuesday, July 30, 2013


What is the point of attending posting if there is no one teaching us something?

Now, i finally get it.

Even though there are no people like Malaysian teachers who spoon feed us to succeed in big big examinations like PMR and SPM.Here, we have to totally depend on ourselves.

Depend on our own interest and passion towards medicine. Depend on our ability to make friends and gain help from them in times of need as they were our only support system.

They wont care about you coming to class or not or is passing in exam's. They have patients to worry about. All they care is your attention for them during their classes.

The point of such system is that they require us to be INDEPENDENT and strive for our own DREAMS PASSION.

I may have been too comfortable in tuition and mentor mentee system that i failed many of my exams at the lack of such system here and was aggravated by unpolished independent learning skills.

Or maybe, it was just about the lack of my own will to SUCCEED has faded over the time. Degraded and demotivated by the so unsupportive education system, lack of inspiring teachers, lack of little notes and motivation camps that we used to have everytime the exams is around the corner, really rude or lack of discipline everywhere with no one to catch or give punishment to students. If there is any teachers willing to care, they have remind those students countless of times of their behavior. I was studying for the sake of my own guilt. Guilty for a lot of things. I didn't study for the sake of LOVE of KNOWLEDGE.

Why is it so difficult to LOVE something ?

What happened to the girl who loved to study for her own sake ?

Posting or classes are more important than studying alone in the cozy room and in the end falling asleep and not remembering what has been read. I too, faced the same dilemma.

Class or self study? Which one is better?

I learned it the hard way that what ever happens,or how bad the class was or the teaching was, class and posting during day times is precious and can never be replaced by notes we made by reading books.
Reading and going to classes is like going to charted ocean. Not reading and going to postings is like sailing an uncharted water. Not reading and not going to class is like not going to the sea at all!

Knowledge makes us prepared of what is happening,but experience makes us CONFIDENT in upcoming situations. Be it a predictable ones or the unpredictable ones.

So, attend your classes and posting no matter how boring it is. Because you will never know what will you NEED from classes that has been lost...

Thursday, July 25, 2013

The Boy who had Guillain-Barre Syndrome

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Post Mortem Exam : Day 3

Yeah i know.

I'm supposed to write this few days back. But i was too emotional to do so. I've been really moody and sensitive since that last practical exam. Traumatized i would say.

2 cases, each 40 marks with instruments.

We were supposed to come at 8 am. Luckily i came  30 minutes early and get ample time to finish history taking and case examination. There are a lot of confusions as that was the only case i took since forever. It had been a very long time since i took and Opthal case.

I just want to tell that the first case presentation went well. However, the second one was a disaster. i couldn't even answer a basic most simple question which brought me to panic attack as well as inability to hold my tears right after i finish my exams. Yeah, i didn't cry in front of those people. I cried for my stupid mistake in front of Allah, the one who knows whats in our hearts. I rather not say anything when i am feeling bad or weepy.I just cry and just say what i want to say in front of Him during solah.

I made a mistake where i mistook 10 years of decrease of vision which was aggravated since last 1 month with loss of vision.

It is not SUDDEN, but GRADUAL onset of loss of vision which contribute to my failure to diagnose the case.

The moral of the day is : 1 month is NOT SUDDEN ONSET, but rather a GRADUAL ONSET.It may started suddenly and progressed for 1 month duration. 

Among questions asked:

-What is uniocular movement
-causes of gradual loss of vision
-complication of pseudophakia

 1st case: Right Nebula on the inferior-lateral margin of the cornea surface was right. They did asked about treatment, management.(keratoplasty,soft contact lenses, tattooing, peripheral iridectomy)

2nd case: Pseudophakia. Yup, i was wrong. I didn't see the whole picture although i've given it a thought about the man having a cataract removal few days back. But, because i was SOO FOCUSED ON SUDDEN ONSET LOSS OF VISION, i missdiagnosed my case as anterior uveitis wtih scleritis following surgery.

She also said that,

"You don't know ANYTHING!"

With that utterly disappointing look on her face.

Well, it was bad for the second case presentation compared to the first one. I was given compliment and said it was good. Two different aura in two different case.

That night i studied all the theory parts and out weighs the practicals part which was the instruments and probable cases. I didn't think straight and was so obsessed with theory part and sacrificing the score-marks on instruments and diagnosis.Argh, they didn't even bother to do a theory viva unlike community medicine as if they already given up on us, the reapeaters. Although, this is my first time taking this exam, i think i did okay.

When people start asking hows your exams? My answer would be, OKAY. Because i want it to be okay. I did okay. It will be okay.

It is not GOOd or not FINE.

 Good means you did extremely good and you are confident enough to say you will pass with flying colours.

Fine means that you did terribly but hoping that you actually get a different outcome.

Okay means it is in the middle. Not to positive. Not too negative. Just prepare ourselves for the worst case scenario.

I promise my self to be better. Better at managing my time during exams and control the urge to sleep. Sleep freshly. Use time wisely. Prepare for the worst. THink simple and basic. Schedule your priority.

Friday, July 12, 2013

Post Mortem Exam 3rd Year : Day 2

Community Medicine

I slept only for 2 hours. If i'm not mistaken. But, i'm glad i had finished whatever target that i want to achieve within one day of studying. More than 70 slides spotters, epidemiological cases, exercises on statistics and so on.  I didn't read the theory part because i am depending on what i have read last two weeks during my theory exams. Anyways, i've got plenty of  time to study while waiting for others to finish their viva. I'm somewhat contented of becoming among the last in a row. Any exams will give that extra time to study and gained something from the ones who have the honour to answer first.

So far, i think i did good. Alhamdulillah.

8.30 am- Went to Y Hospital. Waited at lobby. Said on third floor. Went up by foot. Saw no one there. Text my friend, said its not in hospital. Fast paced walk to college building. Climbed three floors before seeing the others. Waited  while sweating profusely.

9.00am- We sat and waited. A chubby looking invigilator came with answer sheets. We filled in our details. 3 sets of papers were given. One for Medico social case, epidemiological case, and spotters.45 minutes were given to answer epidemiological case. I did okay. Forgot the IMR,MMR,CBR values but it was okay. Then, we had spotters. 1 half minutes for each spotter. I answered all. Alhamdulillah. Then, we were told to pick a random paper with patients name and department. I was the first one to pick and i chose the paper which was thrown out of its group. Alhamdulillah again i got paediatric case. Razika,14 year old. We were told to get back to the hall by 11.40am.Owh, plenty of time to take case. :)

10.45am- Rushed to the  hospital straight to 8th floor. Climb becaused waiting for the lift took so much time. Again, sweating profusely upon arriving the deparment. The kid looked flustered and giggled a bit when she saw sweat dripping from my forehead. I looked aroud and there is no one to help me. So i did the examinations first making sure nothing was left. Yes, i did learnt my lesson yesterday. No findings because she was healthy and was about to get discharged. I took  the history by my self even though there is language barrier. I'm thankful because the kid was able to speak little english and i was able to memorize little Kannada.we complement each other.Ngee. (^_^) So, i scribbled on some A$ paper and rushed to the hall 3 minutes away from the hospital. Again, walking from 8th floor down to the third floor up. Arrived with sweating again. Searched a seat directly under a fan. Wrote the case in the answer paper. was told to shift to lecture hall 5. It has air conditioning. Alhamdulillah, i need it so much. Allah, your blessing never end.

11.40am- Case presentation started. I was the last to go. I had a female examiner and she didn't ask much. Only Investigations and treatment of malaria. Any variations in fever grades...She asked why not typhoid ? What differentiates between typhoid and malaria fever? What test to be done in typhoid? How to prevent typhoid?Then, she let me go. Alhamdulillah, it was clean and satisfacory.

1.00pm-Theory viva started. there three examiners altogether. I waited too long and managed to read the book. I just flipped through all the pages quickly as if i can read like Superman. Heheh...(-__-)"

Examiner 1 : Looked hard at the topics to be question and later he came up with ,
 What is sewage disposal types? I answered and he seemed satisfied although i hesitated a bit. Then, he asked "What is incineration?". I was bewildered but answered anyway. Then, the bell rang.
Examiner 2 : The female lady was there yawning. Already sleepy due to rain or maybe she is just so hungry.
Name some Polio Programs. What is Oral Polio vaccine? How does it transfer? What is Intensified Pulse Polio? How to prevent transmission?
Examiner 3 : Its my Head of the department in our college. First thing he asked was," how was your paper? You think you can pass this time?" I said, it was good and i think i can pass with a smile. Then he proceed with the questions. What caught me was his question about if given a choice to work in hospital or in PHC with same salary which one i would choose? I said, " Sir, i would love to go where i was needed. There is more self satisfaction. Anyways, i'm using peoples money to  study and its time for me to give back to community."He agreed and question of my intention so as to impress him by choosing helping the poor and needy. I clarified my intention and he smiled. Alhamdulillah, with that i was let go.

What is emporiatics? what is ergonomics? Which chapter is it? Define Primary health center. What is Multi Purpose worker? What is Mudeliar Committee?  

p/s: The theory part was so random. I t could be anything. Bye, gotta go break fasting. 

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Post Mortem Exam : Day 1


  • We were given two cases.
  • Took the case for 15 minutes each.
  • Did all the tests necessary before taking the help of translator for history taking.
  • I did forgot to do few vital tasks.
  • It was so haphazard and unsystematic at all.
  • The case presentation was okay. Although i gave a different provisional diagnosis from others. The examiner says its ok, provided that i've given a solid strong reason for my opinion.
  • The viva..hurm, i don't know what to say.
  • Instruments? No need to say much. Just take what ever that i know and describe it. St Clair Thompson adenoid curette with guard was the one i chose without any thinking. Actually i chose that because i finished presenting a case related to it. He gave the the marks in front of me. i could care less. Pufft.
  • So, i wrote provisional diagnosis as Hypertrophied Rhinitis with Sinusitis and Total perforation of the tympanic membrane of atticoantral type.
  • I argued and gave reasons as why i did so, but unfortunately the diagnosis i gave was not perfect.
  • It should be adenoiditis with sinusitis which usually present over early childhood and persisit for long time as causes nasal obstruction.
  • The second case could be subtotal perforation( i can't really make out the annulus or margin, hence total perforation) because of the continuous discharge of the ear. I deduced it based on the fact that the patient had foul smelling discharge and total perforation with no ossicles left in the middle ear cavity.

1st Sessional













Medicine  dan pediatrik shaja yang tidak stadi betul2. Perlu improve utk 2nd sessional. 

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Just take it

Kalau dah kena marah masa kelas, just take it.

Bear it for the moment.

Widened your eyes,
Wrinkled your forehead,
Tightened your lips,
Look your teacher into their eyes
Then,nod to whatever they say.

Next time,

Be honest.

Just say,

"I don't know, sir."

"Sir,no idea."

Or you just geleng kepala.

This is what Kak Tasya called, ILMU TAK TAHU.

Don't dig your own grave.

Think carefully before saying anything.

Say sorry if you've spouted the wrong terminology.

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